May Reflection

Well, I did it, I survived May with minimal tears. This was the month that in my head I've been counting down until since, well, probably fall. I think it was a date I was inevitably looking forward to when I first started college. The difference was that freshmen year me was yearning for the day that I could be done with college and CSU. Senior year me was excited for new beginnings while simultaneously being torn up by the fact that I had to leave. I think that's character development, right?

The beginning half of the month was jam packed with trying to fit in as much as possible into a fifteen day period. There were restaurants to eat at and people to see and loose ends to be tied up and it was a whole thing. It was go, go, go (which is not too dissimilar from the rest of my life, but this was on a whole other level), but I really loved every second of it. I don't think I need to delve too deep into what happened post May 15th. I think there's about two weeks worth of overly emotional blog posts that will explain that topic just fine.


I spent practically a whole week unpacking my room and getting it to my new standards. There's still work to be done, mainly cleaning off the top of my dresser from all of the crap that has been accumulating since the Jonas Brothers hit the scene in 2005/2006. At least my closet is set up and organized. That's truly all that matters, right?

Unpacking was stressful though, don't get me wrong. I had a full on meltdown on the second day I was home because it's much easier to move into an empty space and make it your own. Moving into a place that's already lived in and semi-full is a task that I was not prepared to deal with. It took a few days and a lot of crying to get things to where they are now, but all is well in the world of my childhood bedroom.

I started one of my old jobs again last week, which is fine I suppose. Not my favorite job in the world, but I have to do what I can to save for New York City, right? Can't be too picky with the things that will hopefully help me afford food. I'll start babysitting sometime in June, which is always a good time. I'm looking forward to hopefully a relaxed summer for the first time in my life. We'll see how that goes and how I'm able to handle the concept of "relaxed." Historically speaking, the word 'relax' and I do not get along at all. Maybe I'll see things in a different light this summer. Or maybe I'll just continue to force myself to run around like a chicken with its head cut off.

I'm looking forward to a lot of fun stuff in June though. First thing, even though it's not June, I get to see The 1975 tonight, which I'm super stoked about. My dad is opening for Eddie Money at the end of the month, my brother's old band is getting back together for a show, and my cousin is having a princess themed birthday/dance party. Hopefully there are other concerts and what not sprinkled in there, but only time will tell!