2015 Reflection

My memory is absolute crap. I barely remember what happens a week prior, so trying to recap an entire year into a single blog post is a terrible idea. I mean, the whole point of blogging every day is so I don't have to try to remember every little thing that I do on a daily basis so I can look back onto my life through the photos and words write on here, even if I don't necessarily post about myself all the time. I can normally get a good grasp on what has happened through my Instagram feed and pictures I post on here. The beginning of last year, I was much better at keeping track of my mood through Color Calendar, and I'm determined to get back into it this year because it was such a great way to see check up on myself in the middle or at the end of the month.

Overall, I can declare 2015 a good year. It was insanely busy, yes. It was my first full year of working, at some points two to three jobs, which made it a massive pain the butt sometimes. Over the summer, it felt like I never had a chance to breathe and I swear, I thought I was going to have to drop out of school for a solid month at the beginning of the semester. Fall 2015 kicked my butt and I am genuinely shocked that I survived with all A's and a lone B+. I don't know how I pulled it off, but I sure am glad that I did, because I worked hard for three months to try to get to this point.

But 2015 wasn't good because of school. 2015 was a great year because of who I became, not what grades I received or what classes I took. It was the year of the selfies, the self confidence, the (at times, excessive) compliments, and trying to be the best person I could possibly be. I'd like to think that I succeeded somewhat, though I'm sure there is potential for improvement and some disagreements.

The year certainly wasn't perfect. There were some blunders, some mishaps, and even some For all of the layers and people shed, I replaced them with new shiny skin and friends who exude actual sunshine. It was another year of learning, no surprise there. All years should be learning experiences one way or another, and I appreciate all of the challenges life threw at me this year, even if I'm pretty sure I hated them up until about a week ago. Such if life.

Favorite moments of 2015:

• Starting my first job in Cleveland at the boutique, as well as my first job working with clothing. Probably the one thing that made me realize that what I was doing in school wasn't what I really wanted to be doing. 
• Cutting my hair to my collar bones and lightening the entire thing. I needed to learn how to cope without using my hair as my security blanket. 
• Starting to make wearing lipstick and winged eyeliner as a regular every day necessity. It makes me feel strong. 
• Moving into my first apartment with girls I now consider my best of friends. I felt like a proper grown up, even if I still don't know how to care for myself. 
• Becoming the web editor at the student newspaper. My job is insignificant, but the staff is cool and I enjoy it. 
• Starting my job at the consignment shop, which I am fairly certain has changed my life and I would be nowhere without my incredible boss and co-workers.
• Seeing One Direction live again. Harry's solo in "Drag Me Down" dragged me straight to hell.
• Interviewing Mark from Kodaline and getting to go to their show to cover it for the newspaper. 
• Getting to be a Pumpkin Spice Latte for Halloween. It is my true calling. 
• Going to my first ever fashion show. It was enlightening and I'd be fine with going to them twice a year for the rest of my life.

I would try to list my least favorite moments of 2015, but I can't remember any. It doesn't mean that they didn't happen, it just means that they were not significant enough that I would remember them. Which is a true testament to the fact that even the biggest deals in the moment turn out to be nothing down the line.

Things I'm looking forward to in the new year: 

• Graduating with my degree in December. 
• Turning 21 in November. #FinallyTwentyFun
• Working on friendships
• Having time to read again
• Spending the summer in Cleveland and not at home, for the first time ever. 
• Who knows! 

Thanks so much for sticking with me through my first full year of blogging. Can't wait to see what 2016 has to bring!