Accountability

I am a list maker. I make grocery lists, chore lists, lists of things I want to read and do. I make annual to-do lists and try to split them into seasons. I took my 2015 To Do List and extracted a few of the points to make a Summer 2015 Goals List.

I have done nothing on that list of goals thus far. I've been home for an entire month and I have not been able to tack a single thing from that list.

My sneakers have not left their hiding place underneath my bed, I haven't even touched my yoga mat. I don't bake, I don't cook, I barely even remember to eat three meals a day. I'm not reading, my magazines are untouched, my writing is subpar and I just feel like I've lost all of my creative spark.

It's weird feeling like I'm burnt out. I have no idea where this came from or why everything I used to love (and still do!!!) feels so stale to me at the moment. I don't even want to call this a rut because I'm not miserable or anything of that kind. I'm just not as creatively in tune as I usually am and it's throwing me for a loop. Maybe it has to do with coming straight from a stressful semester and launching myself into a not so creative work atmosphere. Or maybe I just need a small break from things!

It's not a secret that I'm constantly writing fiction (or if it was...oops?) and sometimes I focus so much on writing my own stories that I forget that other ones exist. I'm so attuned to my own fictional writing that I forget about the books on my shelves and sometimes even the writing that isn't fictional, like what I write for this blog. 

Excuses could be made for my pure laziness this summer. I'm tired, I'm busy, blah blah blah. I know they're not legitimate excuses and shouldn't be blocking my way to get what I wanted to get done this summer. I just need to pull myself out of this creative rut and lace up those running shoes or try out those new yoga positions. I need to crack the spine of my books and get myself back into the blogging mindset. Really, I just need to stop being so damn lazy. 

So this is me trying to get my sh*t together and hold myself accountable for my inexcusable indolence. Let's pray that this works!